Farm Girl Turns Everything Around: Sly Husband, Let's Farm

Chapter 1704: Chapter 1703: What is the meaning of his life?

Bei Yun raised an eyebrow. “How am I supposed to understand if you don’t tell me?”

“You haven’t experienced it yourself, so how could you understand?” Qiao Xiaomai glared at him, wishing she could peel off his skin and strip his tendons. How did she end up encountering such a fiend!

“I’ve never felt love, but I’ve tasted despair,” Bei Yun touched his chin thoughtfully and said, somewhat uncertainly, “Despair must be more unbearable than separation from a loved one, right?”

“Stop using your past to make excuses! I’ve never caused you harm, yet now you use me as a hostage and expect me to sympathize with you?”

As soon as the words left her mouth, Bei Yun’s expression froze for a moment. After a pause, he spoke slowly, “I want you to feel what I went through back then. I refuse to believe that you can maintain your current demeanor, or that you’d only kill the person who wronged you.”

“What right do you have to condemn me when you haven’t endured my pain and despair?”

“Ha!” Qiao Xiaomai sneered coldly. “I have no right to condemn you? I only hate you. If the day comes when you fall into my hands, I will make sure to flay you alive!”

Upon hearing this, Bei Yun raised a hand and rubbed his face.

Without another word, he jumped off the carriage.

Given Qiao Xiaomai’s extreme personality, she really could carry out such a promise.

Well, that left one less person in this world who wouldn’t actively strike him.

Only Bei Lingsu was left.

With Bei Lingsu’s personality, she’d likely torment him cruelly before imprisoning him for eternity, banishing him forever from this mortal realm.

At that point, being alive or dead would make no difference; the world itself would truly become a living hell.

What is the meaning of being alive?

He had never pondered such a question. From the moment he gained consciousness, his parents had constantly drilled into him to survive no matter the circumstances. Survive—this was their only expectation of him, and his greatest hope throughout this life.

So, even when deceived by malicious people and his corpse discarded in the wilderness, he didn’t give up. Even as a child wracked by illness and pain worse than death, he still didn’t give up.

Survive—those three words were engraved into his flesh and bones. No matter how difficult, he continued to struggle to live.

Later, he discovered a medicine that could suppress the poison within him, allowing him to live more freely. As long as he took the medicine on time, he wouldn’t have to worry about the poison flaring up. When the poison didn’t erupt, he could live like a normal person.

On the outside, he might appear normal, but his heart had long been warped.

There was no doubt—he had long since become a beast.

What meaning does a beast have in this world?

Studying herbal medicine and poisons?

Yes, he had an interest in that, but it wasn’t a strong one. It couldn’t sustain his will to live.

Hurting others?

Deliberately inflicting suffering on people, watching them cry out in anguish, helpless and despairing—this was indeed one of his pleasures. But this time, seeing Qiao Xiaomai sobbing like this, he suddenly felt bored.

It seemed this wasn’t so entertaining after all.

Love someone?

Now that was truly laughable. He didn’t possess that ability, nor would anyone dare to use it on him.

So, as a beast, what was the point of his existence?

Day after day, watching others experience separations of life and death?

This pleasure had already worn thin for him.

Bei Yun sank into deep reflection on life and his own existence. Over the next few days of travel, he didn’t say another word to Qiao Xiaomai, and Qiao Xiaomai, consumed by the pain of her separation from Tong Sanlang, had no desire to engage with him.

And so, in silence, they arrived at the frontlines.

The battlefield lay at the junction of Daqi, Longshi Country, and Yuchi Country. Here stood a towering mountain, at the foot of which a rushing river flowed past. Beside the river was a wide, flat plain, spacious enough to hold hundreds of thousands of soldiers.

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