Chapter 717: Chapter 725
Bai Zhi walked over and sat in front of her, not speaking, just watching Bai Fei with a smile on her face.
“You always took good care of me in the past, and then I took it for granted, always thinking that you were supposed to take care of me.
I feel embarrassed, and you have to feel embarrassed, too; I feel sad, and you have to feel sad with me; when I’m suffering, you should place me at the center of the world.”
Bai Fei thought about it carefully and realized that she had been somewhat unreasonable back then.
Or rather, extremely selfish, but at that time, she felt so upset, and yet Bai Zhi didn’t understand her.
“I felt that the entire world was dark,”
Bai Fei remembered that time, feeling the whole world was shrouded in darkness.
Her health had deteriorated, her hair falling out in clumps. There was also the senior who said he didn’t really understand her and that they were just friends.
Back then, it was easy for her to blame everything on Bai Zhi, naturally assuming that Bai Zhi would understand her, but where did that confidence come from? Probably from Bai Zhi’s familial love for her.
“I felt you all should revolve around me, especially since I was so upset. How could you not take care of me?”
By the time Bai Fei said this, she was already in tears, “Xingxing, I’m sorry, can you forgive me?”
Bai Zhi, looking at Bai Fei like this, sighed and handed her a tissue.
“Actually, I have problems, too. I guess it’s the fear of losing that makes me never refuse any of your requests, and I go all out to help with whatever you want to do. So you came to think of me as an emotionless tool?”
Indeed, a tool—that’s how they saw her. When they needed her, she would step forward without hesitation, solve all their issues, and of course, they got used to it.
“Now I’ve realized that we each have our own lives, and we shouldn’t interfere too much with each other’s. Cousin, we both were wrong, but it’s okay. The future is long, and we can slowly make changes.”
Bai Zhi never thought anything was unchangeable. Since she had recognized her mistakes, then it was time to change, and the same went for Bai Fei.
Because suppressing oneself would only lead to an eventual explosion.
So Bai Zhi was lucky that Moh Li woke her up. The original Bai Zhi merely did what she wanted, boldly being herself and not constantly bending over backwards for others.
She wasn’t like that before.
“Xingxing, have you forgiven me? Can we go back to how things were before?”
Bai Fei looked at Bai Zhi cautiously, afraid of losing this cousin.
“I’ve forgiven you,” Bai Zhi nodded, “Actually, there’s nothing to forgive or not forgive. We were both just angry then. We just need to be more mindful in the future.”
Bai Zhi’s emotions were very calm. She had truly let go, understanding that everyone has their own emotions and lives and that there should be a proper distance.
But in Bai Fei’s eyes, it was as if Bai Zhi hadn’t forgiven her, because she didn’t pamper her like before.
“Xingxing, you still haven’t really forgiven me, have you? Otherwise, why would you sound so distant?”
Bai Fei felt sad, but she also knew that it was really her own fault.
“No, you’re overthinking it,” Bai Zhi said, somewhat helplessly, with a smile.
“Okay, I’m overthinking,” Bai Fei acknowledged. “Xingxing, you’ve been gone so long, we’ve all missed you.”
Bai Fei took Bai Zhi’s hand and began to act coquettishly, “We’ve missed you. Could you please not leave?”
Bai Zhi withdrew her hand and smiled. “Don’t worry, I won’t leave. But I might not be able to come over every day recently, as I have some things to take care of.”
“What’s the matter?” blurted Bai Fei.
This was somewhat awkward; Bai Zhi could only offer a smile before speaking.
“Um… it’s personal.”
When Bai Fei heard this, she felt a tinge of loss, “I thought we could talk about anything. Ah Zhi, you still mind, don’t you?”
Bai Zhi shook her head, “You’re mistaken; it’s just that we’ve all grown up, and it’s very normal to have our own matters. Each of us has our own business, and that’s normal, isn’t it?”
“Yeah,” even though this was true, she couldn’t help but feel sad.
“Alright, you take good care of yourself, I’ll be going now but I’ll come to see you again in a few days.”
Bai Zhi stood up with a smile and said goodbye to Bai Fei.
“Xingxing, I… I’m sorry, I understand now that the senior is not as important as you all.”
Bai Fei called out loudly to Bai Zhi.
Bai Zhi stopped, her expression became serious, “I don’t know how to say this to you, but I think I’ll probably be friends with Xu Yan in the future. Even if it bothers you, I think it’s better for you to know now rather than later.”
Bai Fei froze upon hearing this. She suddenly laughed; the man she had liked, the one who had rejected her, Bai Zhi wanted to be friends with him.
“Are you serious? Or are you just saying this to embarrass me because you’re angry?”
Things would certainly be awkward with the senior in the future, and whether they would even communicate was in question. Yet Bai Zhi said they would be friends.
“Well, standing on your side, I should keep a distance from him. I might even join you in enmity. But you are not enemies with your cousin. Since I promised Brother Han Feng I would help, I will definitely go; becoming friends with Xu Yan is normal. You could also continue to be friends as long as you can understand that. Most importantly, a long time ago, he gave me a lot of help… It made me realize that I must love myself. Cousin, I don’t want to lie to you, I can’t treat Xu Yan like a stranger, I’m really sorry.”
Whether it’s because of Han Feng or Xu Yan, she would often go to the Drunken Moon Restaurant, so it’s impossible to avoid contact with Xu Yan, especially since they were not exactly enemies.
“But it would be awkward for me, I don’t want to see him, and neither should you.”
Bai Fei’s emotions surged again and she directly spoke out. Although the senior hadn’t said anything, just the thought of her past feelings made it embarrassing for her to face the senior.
Bai Zhi actually understood Bai Xin’s feelings. But keeping it a secret would actually hurt her the most.
“Sorry, cousin, I’m truly sorry for making you feel upset.”
Bai Zhi just said this sentence, even though Xu Yan wasn’t her brother, just Han Feng’s business partner, she couldn’t be completely unrelated to him.
“Why not? Aren’t we the best of sisters? He and I cannot become…”
“He cannot become friends with you, that’s your business, not mine; similarly, who I befriend is actually my freedom, do you understand? If you don’t, I suggest you ask your uncle.”
As children, we thought that hating someone meant we all should hate them together. That’s what best friends did.
But as we grew up, we realized that such behavior was very immature. Their quarrel was their problem and should not involve others.
To put it bluntly, Xu Yan hadn’t wronged Bai Fei; he simply didn’t like her.
Xu Yan hadn’t wronged Bai Zhi either; how could she treat him as a stranger? Even if just as the most casual of friends…
If Xu Yan had wronged Bai Fei today, Bai Zhi would slap him without hesitation, drag him to apologize to Bai Fei, but… she wouldn’t cut ties.
After saying this, Bai Zhi turned around and left. She didn’t know how much her choice would hurt Bai Fei, but she knew one thing for sure: if she didn’t speak up, it would be a lie. It would be disrespectful to Bai Fei…
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