Feng Yi Lan frowned at her words. "Heh? What are you saying? Of course, I said I am here to ask you about coming along. Li Xue, abortion is a type of operation and it means there wire be scissors and everything involved in it. You know how scared I am of pain. I fear lying on the patient bed, I might change my mind and run off. So, I came to ask for your help."
She explained once again and Li Xue smiled. Nodding, she took a small sip from her glass and said, "Yes, I know you are scared of pain and I also believe that you will run off the patient bed when time comes. But you know amidst all this where you are wrong?"
Feng Yi Lan thought once again and then shook her head. She really didn't know. What she felt was all simple, except that in her heart she was feeling a knot. As if she was fearing something. Fearing of losing something.
"I don't know, girl . Tell me clearly."
"Yi Lan, you do have come here to ask my help but that's not for wiping away your fear of abortion. But you want me to give you the reasons to keep this pregnancy . So that I can change your thoughts of giving away the baby that has somewhere already made his way to your heart. You are just losing of losing the connection that is already built between you two now."
Li Xue said with a small but serious smile playing on her lips. Feng Yi Lan thought of speaking against her but for some reason no words came out when she opened her mouth. Cloning it back, she simply kept mum, trying to find one way where she can deny Li Xue's thought. But no matter however she thought, nothing better stuck to her.
"Yi Lan, you know what's the problem of the men we are involved in." Li Xue suddenly asked and Feng Yi Lan looked at her, waiting for her to continue. "It's not that they are the best in the world. But they love us a bit too much. Too much to an extent where they even forget the things they want in their life except us."
"Shufen is the same and so is Director Qi. They love us so much that they don't even care what they are sacrificing just to make us happy. That doesn't mean they don't have wishes and dreams. Do you think a baby comes into existence just for the mother?"
"Yi Lan, the phase of parenting is beautiful for both the parents. If a woman becomes a mother, a man also gets the vibe of being the father when he thinks of his own created element of coming into existence in this world. Do you think Director Qi has not felt the pain of losing the baby when he decided to support your decision?"
Li Xue questioned and Feng Yi Lan struggled to answer her. To which Li Xue shook her head and continued, "Yi Lan, men tend to look insensitive but they get very sensitive when these things appear. After all, they might look stone hearted but they also have the same heart as us which holds the emotions. They too feel the pain as us. The separation hurts both the same."
"Li Xue, I have not been insensitive towards him. Nor did I forced him to agree with my abortion. It's just that I told him that I feel the baby has come unplanned and is confusing me with some stuff. And then he agreed to me, saying that I am more important to him. Believe me."
Feeling bad in heart, Feng Yi Lan said. And Li Xue pressed her lips together in the thin line . It was not like she didn't believe Yi Lan. She did, but it was just that she was trying something else to the girl which she was simply not understanding.
Li Xue stared at Feng Yi Lan for a moment and then took a deep breath in. Exhaling out, she thought to take the other way. "I don't blame you Yi Lan. You got it wrong. Anyway, it's okay. Let's stick to what you feel. For Director Qi's emotions, we will check that later."
She said and Feng Yi Lan nodded to her. To which Li Xue again nodded and continued, "So, you want me to come along with you tomorrow?"
She asked and Feng Yi Lan hummed before saying, "I know Li Xue, I am being cruel to you. You are yourself pregnant and I am asking you something like this. But…"
"Yi Lan, wait! I said we will discuss it with you at the moment. Don't bring me in here. At this moment, I am not the person who is important in this discussion. It's you and the baby inside you. So let's stick to that." Li Xue didn't want to sound irritated but the early months of pregnancy was not letting her have control of it. Furthermore, the topic they were talking about was also not easy.
When Feng Yi Lan saw her losing her calm, she went silent like an obedient one.
"Yi Lan, do you think I was ready when WeiWei came into my life? Or do you think, your brother and I would have been what we are today without her?"
"Li Xue, WeiWei is different. She is all of our sweethearts." Feng Yi Lan said and Li Xue interjected her at her misconception.
"Definitely not, Yi Lan. She is our sweetheart because we made her like that. We feel connected to someone deeply from our heart, he or she becomes our sweetheart. Same would go with the life who is growing inside you. You might have already started feeling him inside you even though it's really small. You might have already started talking to him in your subconsciousness. Do you not?"
Li Xue asked and Yi Lan tried to deny it but then realized that she does have gotten that habit nowadays. She would talk subconsciously and will also have food, keeping the note that she is feasting for not just herselves but also someone inside her.
"Li Xue, I …"
"You don't have to say it, Yi Lan. But you have to understand. The baby has not come suddenly, rather you have become too overwhelmed with the emotions that you simply are not ready to accept it. Give some time and think about it. I am sure, this time your heart and emotions will win over your unsure logic."
Li Xue said and her words paused Feng Yi Lan in her thoughts.
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